Could We?

Now playing : Beth Crowley ~ Warrior

Can I retract all of it back?
I still wanna believe in us.
I still wants to fight.
This fight is exhausting, yet addicting.

Could I conclude it all?
What if after all this time,
You just wants to test me,
Seeing if I'm strong enough for you.

And all of that promises I made you,
The promises that might makes you hold back.
Can I do it all over again?

Just you wait,
I will try my best, my hard.
And I know that talk is cheap,
So could you wait a little longer?
I'm gonna do everything I can.
Everything.

Hanging on there, honey.
Please be patient.

And I'll never force you to always looking at me,
But everytime you're falling in love with them,
Could you just remember,
That this one little girl here,
Is doing everything she can just for you.

Hold on to your faith,
Please know when to stop.
I know this is quite a mess now,
But we both shared blame in this situation.

I'll take my part of responsibility,
Now could you keep yours? :)

22 tahun.

Haruskah lebih dewasa? Haruskah lebih mengerti.
Bukan hanya tentang diri sendiri,
Bukankah seharusnya peduli.

Segala kesalahan dan khilaf yang kulakukan,
Bolehkah aku bersimpuh, memohon ampun?

Aku tidak akan lari, tidak akan pernah.
Akan kuhadapi, akan kuperbaiki.

Meskipun terkadang aku juga berpikir,
Apakah kata 'tidak ada manusia sempurna',
Merupakan penyamaran dari pembelaan diri?

Apakah berjuang lagi, menelan pahitnya cobaan,
Dan maju dengan kepala terangkat tinggi,
dapat membuatku bangkit, sekali lagi?

Aku manusia biasa.
Lemah, terkadang naif.
Naluriku terhadap dunia dapat berbalik tajam,
Naik ke cakrawala, lalu turun menukik.

Meskipun ya, akan kujaga.
Tidak akan kubiarkan diriku sendiri terkapar tidak bergerak,
Bersembunyi.

Akan kuobati sayapku sendiri,
Mengepak kembali, perlahan dan pasti.

Suatu saat, aku percaya dengan beribu rencana terbaik-Nya,
Aku akan dapat tersenyum lagi.

06/03/2016

Happy birthday to me! x)

Goodbye, I guess :)

What kind of games are you playing now?
Whatever it is, honey this isn't helping.
Or maybe, just like usual,
You're already one step ahead?

Or I'm the one who's delusional?
Cause I'm pretty sure we've got something.

Is that night the form of your selfishness?
Or you just wanna show me that you don't care.
If that's the case, you should go all the way
And don't torture me, please no more torturing.

I'll accept it if that's what you wanted.
I'm changing my directions,
Never towards you, not again.

I know it's gonna be hard,
But hey.
You're the one who said that
The bigger our problem is,
The greater we are if we could get over it.

And this is a big matter for me.

I'll find another superman.
That I could look over,
And appreciate me as he should.

And one thing you should probably know,
I'll never get mad at you.
I can read you, and I get why you're doing what you did.

Just hear my last message.

Please try to change and improve that kind of attitude.
It will be an unbearable pain for your future wife,
And it won't be fair for any human being,
To be treated like that.

Hope you're living well.
Good luck finding a suitable partner for you.
I wish you happy and blessed, always.

And yes, you'll be here in my heart.
Neatly locked in the bittersweet memories box of mine :)