Di saat-saat seperti ini,
Dekat kepada Allah-lah yang harus dilakukan.
Membuatku tersadar,
Memang menyakitkan berharap pada manusia.
Di saat-saat seperti ini,
Aku semakin mengerti.
Aku hanya manusia biasa, lemah termakan dunia.
Sekuat dan seteguh apapun diriku dan hatiku,
Saat ada kesombongan setitik kecil-pun,
Allah murka dan Dia lepas rahmat-Nya.
Dan aku hilang.
Tersaduk maruk terlena oleh dunia,
dan ya.
Menjadi salah satu bintang jatuh yang tercecer merana.
Mati berkelip di tengah jalan.
Tapi..
Bukankah manusia ladang dosa dan khilaf?
Bukankah manusia memang diciptakan untuk terus berproses dan belajar?
Apakah masih ada kesempatan untukku bangkit?
Memperbaiki segala kesalahan dan melakukan yang terbaik,
Demi masa depanku sendiri.
Boleh kan?
Harus kukatakan, aku hancur sekarang.
Tapi aku tidak akan hancur beratus kali, kan?
Akan ada masa dimana semua ini bukti nyata,
bahwa aku semakin tumbuh dewasa.
Semakin kuat dan mengerti.
Layak, namun tetap rendah hati.
Karena, ya.
Aku akan berjanji pada diriku sendiri.
Untuk terus berproses, belajar dan berkomitmen.
Meniatkan semua untuk ibadah,
Dengan pelan, namun pasti.
29/02/2016
Monday, February 29, 2016
Sunday, February 7, 2016
Yet another one of my poem.
Maybe it was the idea of you, that appeals to me.
Not what you really are.
Maybe it's because everyone else was having it.
And I guess I want to have something like that too.
And I was clumsy, cause I thought it will end soon.
I was naive, for thinking that this is just another one,
that I will get over in a short amount of time.
Then I was wrong.
My feeling towards you grows apart.
Faster than the bloom, deeper than the spring.
Before I know it, You are everything I could ever think of.
ANd I was terrified.
Locking this feeling deep, deep down to my core.
Trying to fell in love all alone,
while holding on to the idea of independent.
Love.
This is a classic and mysterious thing.
It is.
I couldn't think logically when it comes to you.
Thousands, even millions reasons are standing there to tell me,
that I have to let you go.
But why,
a single reason of saying yes,
Is making me eager to stay?
02-02-2016
23.03 PM
can't sleep. missing this one.
Not what you really are.
Maybe it's because everyone else was having it.
And I guess I want to have something like that too.
And I was clumsy, cause I thought it will end soon.
I was naive, for thinking that this is just another one,
that I will get over in a short amount of time.
Then I was wrong.
My feeling towards you grows apart.
Faster than the bloom, deeper than the spring.
Before I know it, You are everything I could ever think of.
ANd I was terrified.
Locking this feeling deep, deep down to my core.
Trying to fell in love all alone,
while holding on to the idea of independent.
Love.
This is a classic and mysterious thing.
It is.
I couldn't think logically when it comes to you.
Thousands, even millions reasons are standing there to tell me,
that I have to let you go.
But why,
a single reason of saying yes,
Is making me eager to stay?
02-02-2016
23.03 PM
can't sleep. missing this one.
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